welcome to my life

Finally, recovering from a 5 day mc

Ankle still feels sore, but walking isn't a problem

Yesterday midnight, I was slacking with luke and piggy

We were having heart to heart talks.

Teaching luke how to woo girls, which he says he wants to

We were talking and talking, thrn piggy talked about a book he read

He said that women expectation changes over time, and its up to us to be able to catchup with their expectations

As women grow older, they begin to look for different expectations

They think much further than guys do

Which is why women usually mature earlier than guys

Why he was saying that, I related everything to me

There was so much truth in it, maybe to me

Expectation changes, even in guys too

It is up to us to be able to meet thst expectations that they set

Or we are just gonna fall further and further behind, till its too late

At times, at night, I will always say, fuck my life, this emotional pain is so hard to deal with and all

But I come to realize that, the more I i try to prove things to you, the more i'm proving that your decision was right

Sadly, realization comes late all the time

Its up to me to find the most simple happiness I have

On a brighter side, my family is doing really well

A few of them struck 4D, and my home is really like a home right now compared to the past

Yes, my parents had marraige problems before, and almost wanted to divorce a few times

The reason they didn't was because of me and my brother

My mom wouls cry and wail, saying she wanna leave the house

But it was me and my brothef who wouls cry and ask her not to

Days like that were hell for me

There wasn't really a home for me

Times I would  come home, feeling afeaid that I might not see my parents in my home anymore

It was scary, really

But now they seem to have cheered up a lot

They would randomly buy food for me

Or just pass me money to buy stuff

Even treating me for lunch or dinner

To be honest, I have never felt this kind of love before

Its different, it really is

I guess its all part of growing up

All in all, the scar is still there

But I have things waiting for me to do, and friends that still stood by me evem though I don't ses them a lot

I am grateful, I really am