welcome to my life

In the next few weeks, im going back to nee soon to do some coaching

Nee soon is a place that I really dread to go though

I can say, I am alreadt over the denial stage

But at times, I imagine scenarios in my mind

"What if I see you? Worst, what if I see you with that guy"

To be honest, I really have no idea how to react

Should I go forward, face the fact

Or should I just hide so that I do not have to react to anything

It sucks though

I know I will defintely feel anger

But I dont want to be at all

Then again,I probably should face the fact

Should I go up and give blessings

Or should I just give a cold face

I dont know, shall see when it does happens

My ankle feels really bad right now

I feel sharp pain in it when I walk

Im scared I need an operation

Because I know if I do, I wont be able to play ball like before

And, even go for my gcc to get my guards tab

I always have to make decisions like this

Really a bad year this year

Just had a little celebration for wen jun's 18th birthday

I managed to learn to cook a few dishes from my mom

And I really hope I can learn more

She cooks the best dishes though

Especially hakka food

Only now I feel the importance of knowing how to cook

To feed yourself, and to increase your charm

And its really fun, I can see why my mom loves watching people eat her food

Nowadays, im concentrating on improving myself as a person

Phyiscally and mentally

Now I try my best to dress up

And buy clothes for myself

I told myself that I will get something for myself for every pay

For this month, im planning on getting a colonge, and maybe contact lenses on the next month

Its really hard though, to be able to dress up appropriately

I hope I can really see the change in myself in the next year

Lets go, and do it!