welcome to my life

Do you know how much I miss you still

I hate myself sometimes

For not being able to let go

I know I am a sucker for love, yes I am

I hate how I thought too far away

About marraige, about living together in the mear future

You might already be out there, enjoying life without me

Having much more future without me

But here I am, lingering on the past

Still worrying about how you are

I want to text you

But i know its not gonna be the same as lasf time

Every night in camp is a nightmare to me

I hate myself

I thought I could do it

But I really cant

My friends around me have scolded me so badly

Saying I am really stupid to still be holding on

I tried to tell myself to move on, but it seems that it isnt that easy

I've took on dance lessons

Just to fill my mind with something

But whenever I fail at something

I keep thinking how I failed to keep you by my side

It sucks

I hate myself

Im sorry