welcome to my life

4 weeks into my gait

I have learnt so much from it

I have learnt to conquer heights

I have learnt that my limits can be pushed

Pain, is something that can be utilized to give you strength

After today's 10km fast march

I told myself that I am really proud

Proud to finish 10km fast march

I experienced enormous pain

Pain that could have stopped me in my tracks

Times I could have fall out, but I didn't

Today, I look at myself as a new person

GAIT really taught me a lot of stuffs

Soon, after rappelling from a helicopter

I will officially be a guardsmen

It was something that I would never had imagined me being

I remember back in bmt, I said that I will never want to go to guards camp, as i've heard stories of it 

But now, I am really enjoying it here

I have been pushed to limits that I have yet to reach

I am really happy to be able to do it

At times, I really do feel lonely

I would stare at the celling, and feel this void in my heart

I felt lost, and alone

I know my friends also do have their own stuffs to do, they cannog give me attention 24/7

I don't show it at times, but I feel really sad and alone sometimes, just randomly

I would just sit there, and do not feel like talking

It sucks to feel this way

I tried not to think of it

But sometimes, it was inevitable

A lot of times, I smile to avoid having people asking me

I laugh, but deep down, I feel empty

Why is this so

I don't know

But I hope this feeling really goes off soon

I really do