It used to be one of my ranting sites that I go to, posting whatever I think of posting in this.
Well, it seems that i've not been doing it for quite long, so I thought, well why not post something right now 8D.
So, some of my secondary school mates will wonder, "hows life"?
It was great for me though, met some awesome people in poly, although im not doing well academically, but i'll strive hard to do so, and be like the hardworking Jordan in the "O" level period.
Im also doing well in basketball right now!
I found my passion for it, and im really training hard for it.
All in all, life's good, but of course you will expect some rocks that just protrudes out and block your path.
Hope you guys are doing well though.
Well, to me, secondary school was one of the time where my life changed a lot.
It was the time when I had to experience demoting from express to normal academic.
It was when I became really rebellious, thinking that, friends are the best when it comes to solving problem.
Well of course, this still exist, but sometimes, there is nothing like family.
I went out late, slacked with friends, lan gaming so much that it became a bad addiction.
My money was spent on lan gaming, and till today, i regretted every single bit of it.
To be honest, I even stole from my parents to curb my addiction for lan gaming.
Yeah, it was one of my, "baddest" days of my life.
Being a delinquent ain't bad, but it never brings us to the right path.
I was lucky, lucky to realize all of this, and it brought me to the right path.
Im happy for what I am right now, studying in a poly, leading a normal life.
Im turning 19 this year, the age when I would reach adulthood.
When reality starts to come right smack on your face.
What happens in the past is already, the past.
What I should work on is the future.
Nowadays, I have to juggle work, school and sports.
Thinking back, if this were to happen to me 3 years ago, I would have skipped school even more.
Now, I know how tiring is it for my parents.
On some days, after 3.30, when my school end, I have to rush home by 5.30pm to change and prepare for work.
It isn't easy, it takes 1 hour 1/2 bus ride from my school to home.
Which means I have to really rush to work.
I experience juggling my finances.
The wants in my life are all bought by my own money.
My parents just gives me pocket money regularly, and sometimes none.
Yeah, I knew how hard it was for my family to juggle finances.
Im not rich, I know it, but it taught me to be humble
That is what im thankful for.
I thank my parents for raising me up well.
Sometimes, I don't even know what to do to show my love for them, but to do something silently behind them.
Things like, buying food for them knowing that they are sick etc.
In real life, people will see me as a guy who, doesn't really like his family a lot.
I rarely talk to my friends about my parents.
But that doesn't mean that I didn't cared about them.
To my parents, im quiet, and they think that I don't like to get cared about.
Actually, I really do, just that im so bad at expressing myself.
Its always like this, im not really close with my family, and communication seems to be our big wall.
Im lucky that im close to my brother though.
Partially because we work in the same place, this let us have more chance to talk to each other.
Still, I yearn to repay their kindness, for raising me and my brother up, I yearn for the day to come where, I can buy a house for them, and let them sit at home and relax for their life, and I hope it will really happen.
Looking back to my post, and this blog, maturing along with me, I think that i've grown up.
Really a lot.
The reason why I didn't want to close it down is because I wanna read back my past.
My younger days, where they can never be taken back.
I wanna touch on recognition, this, has always been a very important thing in my life.
Its, like, I don't know, but to me, its one of the nicest things to hear from my friends.
Yes, I admit it, I love to hear my friends recognize me, for what I like to do.
When I was young, I used to be called an extra, and wasn't allowed in a clique.
That really caused a scar in me, which results in the inferiority complex in my personality.
From that day, I was really scared of doing anything, anything that people deemed only people with good personality can do.
I was alone in primary school, and trust me, it was a lot for me to handle for my age.
So, one day, I actually decided, to be funny. Yeah, thats right, funny.
Thats something that people really like, and will think that you are fun to be with.
Well, I remember after a few weeks or so, I was accepted into the clique.
From that day onwards, I decided to be a joker, a funny person that everyone loved to be with.
My skills on joking was improved when I joined drama club.
I learnt how to do facial expression, how to exaggerate it etc.
I had lots of friends after that, all of them think that I am a funny person, and I can really take jokes.
Maybe this is why I was portrayed as a, not so serious guy.
Now, I really yearn for recognition, from strangers, friends, and even family.
I want to make my family proud, for what I would achieve.
Anyway, talking about basketball, I was really excited when I heard that we are gonna join for a 3 v 3 contest.
I don't know, its just a small competition, but I get to play it with my teammates.
I will play hard for it, as hard as blake griffin did.
He is my role model of what I would want to become, and I really hope I can do it.
So, yeah, good luck to me and my poor legs XD
How was it? Giving my readers a uber long post to read after a long hiatus.
Although I think no one reads it now, but yeah, im saying hi to you guys again XD
Signing off here now, I have work tomorrow.
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