It has been 2 1/2 years since i set up this blog.
Reading back made me think that I had grew up a lot.
The way I type, what I type in my blog.
Everything, it was changing.
Everytime watching drama series, looking at how families got divorce in the show, and always looking at my family. At that time, I always thought that I had a great family and this would never happen to us.
Who knows, that becomes a reality.
Everytime I walk home, I dread the sound of quarrelling.
There wasn't peace in my home.
Although now they did not quarrel anymore.
In my heart I knew that this family will never be the same as before.
My mom has already packed her bag I guess, and I am not gonna stop her.
I she feels better about it why not let her go then.
Sometimes I always think back about the past, looking at how happy my family was.
Their smiling faces and laughter in the house.
I also looked back to my baby photos, my parents, both of them was smiling really happily, in every photo.
I once imgined how my parent's wedding looks like, and how their faces look like.
All I sensed was bliss and happiness.
Why, that wasn't here anymore, can I bring back the past?
Can I go back to the time when I was oblivous about everything.
Part of growing up uh, can I not grow up?
Time passes by and I am 18.
It is the sign for reaching adulthood.
I don't wanna grow up, its a scary place in the world of adults.
Everything just came crushing down when I reached 18.
They just have to set challenges to me, a challenge of mind games.
Im sick of it already, sick of having to smile everytime even though I am not happy.
I'll just... live with it.
Tomorrow is her birthday~ Gonna wish her a very big happy birthday, incase I forget.Sigh, can you still make me smile like you used to make me smile?
End of post, signing off, there goes my 200th post.
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